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somehow it happened.  i woke up one morning & she was 5, talking & walking & becoming a real person.  no longer a baby or toddler or preschooler, a little girl.  a young lady getting dressed for her first day of kindergarten.  i knew it was coming & even looked forward to it for months… then it arrived & i was extremely nervous, internally freaking out with a smile plastered on my face.  i just knew that she would get swallowed up by the huge school as soon as she walked in.  i worried that she would instantly start calling me “jan” & rolling her eyes as soon as i called after her to”have a great day!”  i was sure that as soon as i had her get a hot lunch on pizza day someone would teach her the “lunch lady land” song!  but, of course, in true Olivia fashion, she is rocking kindergarten!  she has mentioned missing me & her beloved lamby, she struggles with time management because she loves to chat & play, she gets anxious & shakes her hands in her cute, spastic way… but on friday she declared to andrew that she is “not nervous about school anymore & is excited to go back.”  whew!  she even told me that on thursday she played with a new friend on the playground because the little girl was playing all by herself & she thought she might not have a friend to play with… i could not be more proud of my little lady!  i am finally realizing that everything will be fine, at least as long as she still lets me hug her & whisper “i love you, have a great day!” before she disappears behind the big glass doors…